Tuesday, April 23, 2013

Week 8 Blog

I went back and thought about the different exercises that we had throughout this term.  I have to say even though I feel like I struggled through some of them they really did help me.  These past few weeks I have been struggling a lot with depression and anxiety.  Through out this journey I have working on meditating and a subtle mind.  I just used subtle mind today when I was feeling an anxious moment.  I was very frustrated because I was trying to get this thought out of my mind and it was not working.  So I decided to "cut" it out.  I closed my eyes and slowly started to focus on my breath.  I got to a point where I was able to see my thoughts coming in and when the thought that was  bothering me popped up I stopped it and "cut" it out.  I then imagined taking it outside and starting it on fire, it was a contained fire (safety first!).  After destroying the thought I re entered my mind and focused on filling that void with something positive.  This wasn't a quick fix.  I had to meditate on the thought that I put into that space to really instill it into my life.

So when it comes to the exercises that I will continue to focus on in my life are meditation and subtle mind.  These are the two that I found easier to do and easier to focus on while trying to relax.  I like that with subtle mind I can "control" the thought that come into my mind and which ones leave.  It has a calming affect being able to do this and is even better when I am able to meditate on the positive thoughts of my mind.  This has changed my outlook on how I can do things.  I am able to create a more positive mindset and happier outlook.

1 comment:

  1. Hello Amanda,

    I also have struggled through some of the exercises. I found that the loving kindness helped me along with the visualization. I kind of used the visualization before this class imaging me somewhere on a beach on vacation just so I can escape everything that is going on that day and to relax like on a mini vacation.

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