Tuesday, April 9, 2013

Unit 6 Blog

I want to start by talking about the assessment.  A little over a month ago I received some bad news.  It was at this time that I took a good hard look at my life.  I realized that I am out of shape in all aspects and needed to make changes.  I need to work on my life physically, mentally, and spiritually.  I began to work on working out more often, I started talking to a counselor, and began to read books to help spiritually.  Today when I was talking to my counselor she asked me what I would need to change in my life to feel good about myself.  I remember when I graduated from college in 2004 I had just lost a lot of weight and had great self confidence.  How did I get to this weight loss?  Well in all honestly I was very depressed.  I was at a point in my life where I could walk away or I could dive in.  I chose to dive in.  I decided that if there was a time I was depressed or upset I would go work out.  I rode my bike instead of driving and when I wasn't on my bike I was rollerblading.  I started a daily devotional and started reading christian fiction.  At this point in my life I didn't do much with meditation or my mental health.  So in February when I realized that I needed to make a change I decided to try some of the same things.  I will be honest it is difficult to do when you are raising two young children.  I am still working and still struggle but I feel like I am learning.  I honestly wanted to say I am gaining a little more control over my life but I realized that I am not in control and the moment I give up the control to God the better my life will be.  I began practicing yoga and Pilates.  I love them.  My muscles hurt while I am in class but afterwards I feel so centered.  I love it.  Just recently I started having a little more pain like I was feeling when all of this started.  I will say it makes me feel panicked but I also realized that these are the times I need to relax and pray to God to help me over come the pain.  Last night I was panicky and decided I wasn't going to give into the fear, I prayed and the pain was gone.

I will be honest it was a little difficult to concentrate on the meditation with two screaming little boys.  When I did close my eyes and focus, I couldn't help but smile.  Just thinking about everyone without pain or everyone praying for others.  Think of what could be done if everyone prays for other people.  Not just saying they will pray or meditate but actually doing it.  I felt happy and it is a great feeling.

1 comment:

  1. Hi Amanda,

    I enjoyed reading your post. Reading it gives me the encouragement to start exercising to lose weight that I really need to. I have been out of work for 8 months and my unemployemnt ran out. I have had to make a lot of changes, and it has been very stressfull. The changes that I have made is to give up my worries to God and I am not really stressed anymore. That was hard because I like to be in control, and I realize that I not in control and have to be patient. God will provide my needs.

    Sherri W

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