Unit 7

I can't believe we are completing week 7 it feels like we just started.  When I look back at the last 7 weeks and realize all the has happened it is crazy what I have been through.  I will be honest this was a very difficult week for me in all avenues in my life.  All week I kept thinking that I just needed to meditate, but my thoughts consumed me.  I couldn't focus and have been an emotional mess.  I have had enough.  I don't like feeling this way anymore and want to feel healthy and happy again.  This week I decided to do my meditations differently.  I listened to the recording when my anxiety was at the highest and I couldn't seem to focus.  I will be honest I don't know what was different but this week I felt more relaxed and calm during the meditation.  When she said to focus on a wise man I imagined standing there with Jesus.  I know this is not for everyone, but being a faithful person going through a difficult time this is the person I needed to see.

With the water in the background what I thought about the footprints poem and pictured myself walking along the beach with Jesus.  I felt at peace and calm, two things I have not felt in a long time.  I plan to continue this practice.  It was just today that I realized that I need to get a better schedule started.  Instead of wasting a day and going to bed late I need to shift my focus so that I can get up early to practice my meditation and yoga.  If I hadn't been so focused on the different avenues of my life I am not sure how I would have made it through the last few months.  Just being aware of what my body needs has made a huge difference.

If you were to hear "One cannot lead another where one has not gone himself", what would your thoughts be?  For me it is the thought that how can you help someone or guide someone if you haven't bee there yourself.  I see that in what I have gone through.  Just a few short weeks after my experience I learned of someone else who was going through the same thing.  I was able to help her and later learned that me just talking to her and encouraging her made a difference in what she was going through.  As terrible and hard as it was to go through it does make me feel good that I was able to help someone else. 

I feel that to lead others I need to continue to grow and develop.  I am studying to be a dietitian and how can I do that if I myself can not get my eating under control and lose weight.  Would you listen to an overweight dietitian?  Probably not, but I know I would listen to someone who has been there and made it through.  Someone who is continuing to work on their journey.

Amanda M.